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hmm... last night I was talking with a dude... about love... about wht we believe is love..... and then i thought... do I believe in love???? wht is love???? and thn I was back at the begining.... again.... love is a feeling... a feeling tht differs from person to person... tht sometimes its not shared.... tht sometimes it hurts... tht sometimes it fades..... but was it really love??? or obsession??? do we drive ourselfs to obsession???? because to me, love is shared and never fades.... and wht about those times tht ppl say their in "love" with 2 ppl???? I believe tht, since love is a feeling, we can be in "love" with as many ppl we want... but it might not b the 'real' thing..... like more than one ppl can make u smile, but not happy... more than one ppl can make u sad, but not cry.....u can say u 'love' more thn one person.... but its just a fling of the momment.... love confuses me.... because I dont believe in it...... my mom says she loves me... yet she did nothing whn I was being abuse.... and she says she still loves him.... is tht love????? the one tht no matter wht , u'll "love" tht person no matter wht it does??? or is it stupidness???? wht about sex??? is love sex?? is sex love???? wht about those ppl who got std's???? or those who brake off after doing it???? wht about those ppl who never want to get married???? who dont belive in it????? why date if it will lead to more dates???? why do we drive ourself bananas for "love"???? why do ppl want it???? do we really need tht kind of love???? do we need to feel that kind of love???? do I need it??? why???? or is it just a want???? why must we have it????? can we just live alone???? what if I never find it???? what will that make of me????? is how pretty I am affect my chances of love???? wht if I'm too ugly???? what if love isnt for me????? how will I know its love???? my definition of love is the one that goes further than 'sex'... that u love that person soo much, sex doesnt matter... that it goes beyond it... that just seing the person is more than enough.... that no matter what happens... no matter wht tht person looks like.... the feeling will always be ther.... but the problem with this... is that no one believes in it anymore....... I believe that everyne experiences love... but sometimes we look at the artificial things.... we forget tht beauty fades... and whn it does no one will remember it.... I know I have my flaws... but one thing I know for sure.... I'm not waiting for love..... if it happens, it'll happen... if it doesnt, I'll b proud to say I never falled in love.